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I Quit.

Posted by DotExecutables - July 4th, 2023


I've decided to quit animation and artwork all together. I've been having worse and worse dissociative episodes more and more. I'm not in stable mind to get back to what I love. I hate the internet. I hate people. I hate myself. I hate the constant way I try to make friends and black out and can't remember anything I've done.


So I quit. I'm done. Hopefully my name doesn't show up in obituaries but I think I'm near the end of my life. I won't go into detail but my brain doesn't work anymore.


I'll see you guys later.


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I've always loved to see your work. This was a hard read for me. I know twitter is a shit site. but you can't let twitter dictate what you do with your life and doing the things you love. I hope you seek professional help, I understand if you think cutting out twitter will help. Twitter has too many assholes on that site. But you shouldn't let those assholes dictate what you should do with your life. please take as much time as you need, and get help. I don't want to see you going down this dark path.

Its my fault. I can't deal with my disassociative illness anymore. I am contemplating suicide again. I woke up with my keyboard destroyed. I don't know what happened last night and early this morning. No one should have to go through this. I have cuts on my wrist that are deep. I can't afford to go to the hospital for it.

@DotExecutables please try to talk to someone who can help you. I know it may seem like a lost cause. but please. Try. call 988. talk to the people you trust. anything.

Thank you. They're sending a worker out to me now.

@DotExecutables That's good to hear. I hope you get better.

I would like to echo what Mr Smirkytrick said and also thank him for the help he provided. I have been a longtime follower and i admire your works. I truly hope you can get the help you need. The world would be a less bright place wihout you. <3

Thank you for the kind words. I truly mean it. But I think the world would be better without people like me. I don't want a world with people that have what I have. Hopefully the facility I am now residing in can help me gain a semblance of recognition and help me be able to function normally for once in my life. Thank you again for hanging around. I'm sorry for everything I've done. Whatever is in my head wants to kill me and make me ruin my life and watch me suffer.

@muchloveanon @DotExecutables All I can really tell is that I admire people who can trudge through pain and yet be able to create things of beauty. Or, in some instances, use that pain to make the world that bit more of one you want to live in. Like Van Gogh, who has suffered a lot and ended his life, because he didn't see value in his work or his existence. I do believe, that if mental health aid was available back then, he'd survive for much longer and given us a lot more to appreciate. And it's a tragedy he didn't live long enough to see his work get appreciation.
I really hope you'll be able to keep on going, if not for our entertainment, then at least for your own sake - to see just how much you can give to the world and just how much beauty your mind can exert. See just how far you can go. A hard challenge, but life is never easy.
Personally, I've lost both my parents before I could legally drink alcohol. And I loved them both dearly. But what they've instilled in me is a will to, despite all of my shortcomings, be myself and never let outside world, or my own problems, me down. I try to write stories and even really pushing myself to write a book. Only thing that's holding me back is my laziness. You, sir, on the other hand, held on for so long, doing many a great things with your talent - giving people a reprieve to feel better at the very least. To see your art and for a moment distract themselves from the troubles. That's worth a lot in my opinion. I do hope you'll get better, because despite all that happened to me, all that I've endured and lost, I've also gained, experienced and found a lot as well.

Whatever happens, happens for the better. (c) Alex S.

Adelie: I guess we did see the last of Miss Color. What a shame.